Farewell Part 2

 I am crying now because of a simple sentence. 

I just finished my speaking course when my teacher said I had determination as a learner. She explained to me that I had a good will to ensure my pronunciation after she gave the example, repeated, made a sentence, and so on and so on. I just feel appreciated. 

I am crying a lot now. 

I am really try hard for many things, and also for learning English because i found it is very harddddd. 

The same thing that I got after Tom appreciated me the day before, maybe around 10 days ago. 

Why am I crying this hard? 

I do not know, really have no idea why i am doing this. Is it because i felt that i am trying hard and no one know and really understand what was my feelings? 

Its kinda hard to believe in myself often, learning and doubting my self even happened very often. Even though i was walk this far.

Dear myself, thank you, thank you veryyyy much. 

I love you, xoxo. 

Thanks for everything, dear Allah. Alhamdulillah, please hug me always :"

[draft] Teaser to PDT hehehe~~

I started pre-departure training in tears, and I cried on my last day of pre-departure training. 

Being a mom is hard; being a student mom is even harder. Even though I have spent almost 11 years away from home, and sometimes feel crazy handling a toddler and the household, being away from home in a new place as a mother is another season of adaptation. I cried a day before going to Bali and cried in the first week because I felt it was difficult to find a topic and references for my problem-solving paper. I just felt I wanna going back home as early as possible, do my routine, and handle my editing project as well. However, the uncomfortable zone is a place of growth, so I had to take my responsibility. 

Applying for scholarships was my husband's idea after he observed (he said) my potential. I never thought about my master's or even doctoral program when I was in an ideal state. After joining a summer school back in 2016, it just left my thoughts to not continue my studies because of the difficulty in understanding and adapting to all the new things (and at that time, so many science topics). Back then, my husband was accidentally laid off from his job (because of winter tech), and he supported me in learning IELTS. After many dramas and not-so-easy journey, Long story short, the day has come. My application for AAS was successful, and here I am, on my last day of pre-departure training. 

I really learned a lot and admire my teacher so much. His interest in teaching really boosts our knowledge, mindset, and skills to adapt on the later day of 

 The Day is Hard

When Quilbot Read My Assignment

 

Captured by Yudith because she has quilbot account.

this is the checking of my academic report assignment, while at first i am so nervous, getting 0% in plagiarism and AI detector such as a big things for me :") 

Appreciation

 "Well done. You must be working very hard. So, good job!"

Huhu thanks. You made my day even after ashar I feel I had no more energy to continue this. 

Thank you, Tom.